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Catherine Bradley's avatar

This made me tear up. For several months after my son died I had a handful of dreams and I wrote them all down. Wanting to remember every detail as it felt like another memory with him. I haven’t had a dream now in about 2 years and like you I long for one. Every night I hope and pray he’ll come to me but he evades my dreams or I just don’t remember them when I wake.

I’ll keep searching for signs and smile whenever I see them.

Take care x

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Ruhie Vaidya's avatar

Thank you Catherine ❤️ I’m so sorry you know this pain. It’s interesting that you experienced them early on and then they stopped? I’m sure you’ve wondered about this before, but ruminating on it doesn’t change the fact I guess. Our love for them is just as strong, even if they evade our dreams. But I’ll keep hoping they visit for the both us 🙏🏼✨

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Tiffany Chu's avatar

I'm so sorry your son died, Catherine. My heart breaks for you.

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Catherine Bradley's avatar

Thank you Tiffany 🩵🩵

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Nancy E. Holroyd, RN's avatar

I'm sorry for your loss. I know the longing to just see my daughter again. One more moment in her presence. I do know it's counterproductive to blame yourself for the absence of seeing your loved one in dreams, or signs, or any type of manifestation. Letting go may, or may not make it happen. But that does not mean your dad's essence is not there. He will forever be in your heart, just as my daughter is in mine.

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Ruhie Vaidya's avatar

Thank you for your kind words Nancy 💛 I know I shouldn’t blame myself - that his absence doesn’t mean our love or connection is any less strong. There is deep power in letting go isn’t there? It might not make what we want happen, but it releases the control it has on our minds. Those we’ve loved and lost remain in our hearts always, as you so rightly said 🙏🏼✨

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Rachel Schiller's avatar

I'm sorry for your loss. I agree that there is too much 'noise'. When I - not often enough- see signs, I build them up and become delirious. A shiny dime in a parking lot as I go where I need to.

Have you ever considered going to a valid psychic medium. No idea how or why, but some people have gifts and messages might bring comfort.

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Ruhie Vaidya's avatar

Thank you for sharing a Rachel 🫶 Those signs are so special aren’t they? I’m not been to a psychic medium before - have you? How was your experience? I find it so fascinating and I’m really curious how it works, but haven’t ventured there yet myself!

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Janet S Abadir's avatar

You summed up grief so beautifully. I have experienced all of these longings about my dad as well. This month marks two years since he passed. I am thankful for my faith in Jesus Christ, and remembering that the invisible reality is more real than the visible.

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Ruhie Vaidya's avatar

Thank you Janet 💛 I hate that anyone has to relate to this deep yearning, but in a way it’s comforting to know we’re not alone in feeling this way ❤️‍🩹 The last sentiment you shared is so powerful — our invisible reality is more real that the visible. I’ll keep that with me

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Tiffany Chu's avatar

Sending you all my love, Ruhie. This longing is so deep and relatable. I've dreamed about Ren sometimes, but except for one time, I think it was just my mind wanting to manifest him. It happens less often now, but I'm always a wreck the day or two after. It's hard dreaming that your son's alive and waking up to him still being dead.

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Ruhie Vaidya's avatar

Thank you Tiffany! That’s unimaginably painful … the jarring reality when you wake up that he’s truly gone ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 Thank you for sharing your experience 🫶

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